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make this right
01:41
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Just because you say it doesn't mean it's so
But speak it over me
Just because you claim it doesn't mean it's yours
I am only getting worse
With everything I try
Can I go back to the first
Time and make this right
Just because you love me doesn't mean I'm worth
Any hurt I've caused
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean I've changed
I was in the wrong
And I am only getting worse
With everything I try
Can I go back to the first
Time and make this right?
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Think of me as wasted time
In the garden of Proserpine
Whatever we were we weren't alive
And I would go round again
I think of you as frozen breath
Pushed out of providence mouth
Giving a shape to a sound
I wanna feel it again
I wish that you were around
And when you are I'm not sure
What to do with your body
What to do with your form
You noisily hover above
While I compulsively sleep
You brace the same dam
You clamor against
You are my master
My girl my defense
And I wish that you were around
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burned out
03:06
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Burn gas in our parent's cars
Burned out but you scratch the scar
Burning rubber you made it so far without me
I give way as you flood the dam
I give up on all my old plans
I give grief but I understand it's on me
Fuck it let's get hated
Not much there to lose
We'll make a scene and take off
Make everybody choose
I wish I were you sometimes
Lying in my bed
I wish I could read the signs
That I could clear my head
I wish I were true like you
Ironic as it sounds
I wish I could think things through
And figure this all out
But I never had been so in love with someone
Til I found you
Fuck it let's get hated
Not much there to lose
We'll make a scene and take off
Make everybody choose
Show them what we're made of
Dissipating air
Jaded thought
Repression
Lately I don't care
I never had been so in love with someone
When I found you
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a frame
02:56
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Inside a frame there's a picture
Two lovers are crowding the space
They push back on the edges
They are just lying staring into silence
Something is captured to say
I'm alone but with you
And not in a good way
I'm trying so hard not to say
That I can't see this through
To where I would want to
I stare at your eyes trying to get inside
And be with you
You weren't there for me
You were there for you
Somehow it occurs to me now
We didn't need a singular frame
where we're always together
I see you across a room
I'm alone but with you
Inside of a church where
All this is captured
And we are both wandering through
Not all is lovely
But I'm here for myself
Because there's no one else like you
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on your way back
04:30
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on your way out
04:47
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On your way out
And I'm right behind you
When time has run out
A memory survives you
Scratched in the paint
Spirit in this space
Your friend lived downstairs
While she was passing
From here to there
I have no memory
It's hard for you too
But you feel the call to move
And it moves through you
Your son is in sports
With friends all around him
Joy in his heart
Love that abounds
He wants to go home
But tries not to show
Your daughter is smart
And so well adjusted
Will it tear her apart
Will all her passion
Because displaced
God of all our fates
Is this the only way
We're lost without you
So lead us on
Fire by night
Cloud at dawn
We're weak without you
But you are strong
Tell me we don't have to go
Turn us around we can still find home
In the place that we left not an hour ago
It's getting harder to breath in this terminal
Tell me we don't have to go
Where the water is scare and evergreens don't grow
Where sorrow would find a foothold in my soul
And whisper secrets that I didn't want to know
Tell me don't have to go
The engine is screaming as the airplane pulls
Away and I'm grasping but it's too much to hold
Reaching the sky we leave it all below
We're lost without you
So lead us on
Fire by night
Cloud at dawn
We're weak without you
But you are strong
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What have I got to lose
I am always afraid
But when I run from you
I find only a maze
I trace my steps
I know the way
I'm coming back to you
For as long as I can
I'll stay within your arms
Til I feel the pull again
And this time I'll drift farther away
Until it's a memory
Holding up to the light
All of my wondering
All the things of my life
All of my misery
Can you see that I try
Am I so weak
Should I be ashamed
Should I have kept
Wearing that same road into the ground
This time I won't go that same way
This time I'll lose track on my steps
Find a peace in lostness
I walked through those canyons
Playing light across the stone
In the twilight hour
Learning to love feeling alone
Every step wore deeper
And new faces formed in turn
And you watched my going
And coming again
Slow and unsure
Now upon my leaving
I know that place will decay
And I'm sad to lose it
But not as afraid
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lake day
03:22
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An hour from the town
We spent the night at my parent's house
I don't know when to close my mouth
And listen to you speak
You're always underground
And I beg you to come out
You're luminous
Do I darken you
I always get so mean
In the morning you'll go farther south
As I go the other way
Can't help but feel so guilty
I could go so many days
Lying there in silence
Nothing that I want to say
Except I'm sorry and I miss you
I wish I were not this way
But not I love you and I miss you
And we'll find our better day
No I'm just sorry and I miss you
I wish I were not this way
If a light would shine
Show me how to be
Something more than me
Something worth belief in
Gas fire dying down
As we stand up from the catch
We sleep separate
I don't wonder if your mind is spinning out
Talking round and round
As if words could save us now
Your words didn't make me stay
And mine couldn't make you leave
In the morning you'll go farther south
As I go the other way
Can't help but feel so guilty
I could go so many days
Lying there in silence
Nothing that I want to say
Except I'm sorry and I miss you
I wish I were not this way
If a light would shine
Show me how to be
Something more than me
Something we could both believe in
I would follow where it leads
I'd go anywhere to be
Something more than me
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Hey why don't you come by here more often
I think I'd even like it if you lived here
Maybe it's just become too awkward
Now that I don't want the things I used to
When we met on darkened corners
When we spread a blanket in the tall grass
When I was alone is when I'd call you
But I don't think of you the way I used to
Now I only think about your colors
Now I think of strings attached to crime boards
Of all the patterns they make up
I don't think of you the way I used to
You must be sick of me like I'm used to
Something new from something old
It used to be simple
It used to be
It might be again when you come back
But you're always finding some new way to tease
You're always changing the locks with your old key
When you get back you'll find
The place that you left behind
Has a place for you still inside
Of a different room this time
When you get back you'll know
That all of our grief helped grow
Something new from something old
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go far
02:18
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Go far
Go where you will
Go where you can't see home
Take care
Take what you can
Bring back stories of ladders and stairs
And go far there
You're on your own
Be strong
Be what you will
Be unafraid
You'll get it wrong
Come home
Come back when you will
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Jacob Kelly Seattle, Washington
Singer-Songwriter Singing-Songwriting from Seattle
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